alone

the only time i hear the train is when it's half passed midnight and they've fallen into a static slumber. I'm wide awake, eating crunchy things, (salted) just so I can do it alone. and while i'm told it goes against our biology and design, and while that makes complete sense, alone is what i crave. alone is where i brew and burn and come alive, so i can (joyfully) come back to them (and also, me.)