Octave slips into a slumber and I am left with myself. This humble table that seats four, is my place and this afternoon is my time. This feels good. I don’t battle the should(s) but rather the equally competing fires inside my chest. Even the simplest of decisions, whether to lie in bed for a rest, to sweep my floors, to write or to read, or to call a good friend, quarrel inside me. All bring joy and all want to be pursued. Time is fleeting and so I ask myself daily, in the hours after noon, and the hour(s) before she wakes, just how do I want to spend my personal time.
Today I decide to put my phone in its favorite place, tucked away and out of my presence. I decide I want my presence on social media be more selective and intentional. I want to be less to many and more to a very few. I want to document my life for the 4 us and for that to be enough. I want to chase the tangible and make the disappearing present, my forever. I decide the kitchen might suit my time best today. Our dinner needs quality time and love too. It’s been awhile since I’ve taken my time with our meals and let pinches of salt, whisks of oils and spices, and the chopping of vegetables consume me. My personal time feels so limited and yet today I know this is what it is for. Time, it is so small and yet I am so full, bursting with new life. It seems these days before we depart simply cannot hold me. So I let this new energy flow over into our cracked and chipped bowls that bare the emotional burdens we’ve been wrestling. There really are even physical symbols filled with great meaning that weave in and around us. I am awake to it all. We will not move with these bowls, we will not eat of these burdens any longer. It is time to for new bowls. Before we lay them to rest we will fill them back, coming full circle, coming back to our roots, remembering our sweet love.
Little Bowl of Big Love
This is probably the most eaten meal enjoyed in our bowls last year. The vegetables often changed depending on what we have around, but the sauce that came from my sprouted kitchen cookbook is perfect and has always stayed the same. While it is nothing fancy, it is tasty, full of vegetables and prepared in under 30 minutes. And it’s a dream for all you one pot wonder type of people…(Jasmine!) Very easy clean up. It serves 4 and tastes great hot or cold.
1 package (8 oz.) of soba noodles
2 large carrots
2 small zucchini
1 large head of broccoli
Handful of fresh cilantro
4 green onions, thinly sliced
1/4 cup toasted sesame seeds
3 tbsp. toasted sesame oil
3 tbsp. tamari sauce
2 tbsp. tahini
2 tbsp. agave nectar
Grated zest and juice of 1 lime
2-inch piece of ginger peeled and finely grated
Wash and cut broccoli into bite size pieces. Set aside. Wash and peel carrots and zucchini into long ribbons with a Julienne peeler. Set aside. Toast sesame seeds over medium heat in a small saucepan. Set aside. Bring a very large pot of water to a boil. Add noodles and cook as instructed on the package. While noodles are cooking, whisk together dressing ingredients and set aside. 1-2 minutes before noodles are fully cooked, add vegetables in the same large pot, and cook for 2-3 more minutes. This just depends on how crisp or soft you prefer your vegetables. Drain into a large colander, and place noodles and vegetables pack into the same large pot. Pour over dressing, cilantro and toasted sesame seeds. Gently toss until everything is drenched in the lovely sauce. Serve into bowls and garnish with thinly sliced green onions.